Wa its been almost a month since my previous post...paiseh lol. i've been rather busy and lazy to post. But at least im back! lol a lot has happened since the previous post, and im lazy to post all of them xD. i'll just give a brief summary of my pathetically busy life:
16-20 May, i went to vietnam for dance OELP. That trip made me happier than normal days, and i wished that time would stop at that perfect moment. But ofcos, tts impossible. Then after the vietnam trip, sulao said that he was gonna choose the next president of dance society, and he chose two "candidates". Me and zaw. Obviously i was shocked. There were so many better choices than me, but why did he choose me? My results werent very good either. LOL haiz honestly, being the pres seems great, but the extra burden and responsibilty on my shoulders wouldnt exactly improve my pathetic life.
Anyway, after we arrived back in Singapore, all those happiness instantly disappeared....stress comes back and all my worries surfaced again. All my worries include: friendship probs, relationship probs, studies, life etc. Life really sucks ttc (to the core). I dun even know wads the purpose of everything. But at least i have a confidante xD. Someone who listens to my problems and understands me. We share each others' secrets and talk about it. Honestly, talking to someone who understands really helps. By sharing all ur troubles, u wun explode on the inside. A fren is meant to be there to listen and share these pain.
Anyway, yesterday was the dance orientation for the year ones. I cant believe i got lost on my way to west coast park! somemore i oso caused my fren who travelled with me to suffer....i feel really bad >< And i might have unknowingly said some of my secrets to my fren...zzzzz stupid me and my mouth.
Sometimes, i wonder. Why try so hard when u know that it is impossible!? But giving up isnt that easy and it doesnt happen overnight. On the surface, i may seem like a happy opotimistic person, but deep down, all my troubles are actually slowly eating away my heart and soul. God, or someone, help me pls...
