....I'd take another chance,
Take a fall, take a shot for you.
I need you like a heart needs a beat,
But it's nothin' new.
I loved you with a fire red,
Now it's turnin' blue...
And you say...
Sorry, like an angel
Heaven let me think was you...
But I'm afraid....--Apologize by One Republic

I just realised that i have been updating on my blog veryvery early in the morning. Cos i cant sleep lols.

....Work it harder, make it better, do it faster, makes us stronger, more than ever, never over, our work is never over....--Stronger by Kanye West

I dun like your attitude towards me. Thats it.
So pls stop with that *stupid* attitude.
I'm controlling myself so that i dun say the F word.
Like seriously, What the Fishballs is your problem?
You got a problem, then jus get lost and dun take it to me.
Or one day i'll just crush you in my hands.

I hate carpets. Now. My whole body has burns and bruises and some parts of my skin came off. BUT on the bright side, i consider "S.F.C.B.O." a success xP. (Search For Chio Bu Operation) LOLs jkjk xD

....I'm not surprised, not everything last, I've broken my heart so many times i stopped keeping track. Talk myself in, I talk myself out, I get all worked up, then i let myself down....--I just haven't met you yet by Michael Buble

I'm glad i have good friends, especially those awesome brothers from dance. They make me feel happy, and they draw away the feeling of loneliness. Maybe thats the reason why i enjoy coming to dance so much. I have a loving family there.

Thanks Roy, we are two emo guys on the same boat (: Love talking to you.

Last day of the hols...i dunno but i have a kind o feeling that even i dun understand. I wanna go school and study, but there's dance rehearsals. But i love dance rehearsals. Still, i wanna see my classmates. Haiz choices in life are terrible

....its like i waited my whole life for this one night, its gon' be me you and the dance floor. 'Cause we only got one night, double your pleasure, double your fun, and dance forever....--Forever by Chris Brown

I'll try my best. I promise.

....I am in misery
There ain't nobody who can comfort me
Why won't you answer me?
Your silence is slowly killing me
Girl you really got me bad
You really got me bad
Now I'm gonna get you back
I'm gonna get you back....--Misery by Maroon 5

Honestly, I dun think anyone can understand what im feeling now. No one. Tears almost came out of my eyes today.

Its funny how life can be so coincidental. The lyrics of some songs relate to whatever feelings i have for that day.

....You`re looking for something you can`t find
If you give it up, you`ll lose your mind
There`s always something in your way
What can you say....--Good Day by The Click 5

Hmmm....putting in 100% effort is never enough. 110% is the way to do it. But no i won't give 110%. I'll give INFINITE%.

....I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone....--Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day

Walking alone gives me a sense of solitude. It gives me time to think. About what? I dunno...jus think abt my life?

Half a year has gone by alr...time flies, but im not having fun. Wish to see my frens soon.

....You're all alone running out of ways to
Hold on to hope, and it always slips away
You're all alone, but you don't have to
Pretend to cope, there is a better way

If you would change your perspective
You'd see that it is true
Life is not always what you want
Sometimes it's hard to bear
I'd be with you, and help you
In all that you go through
I love you, let me change your heart....--All Alone by Kutless

Watched Mr Popper's Penguins with my awesome frens today. Seriously dam funny and awesome! I recommend you all to watch it. Then I played pool with zaw, zhixun, haolong and vanessa. Seriously laugh until stomache cramp.

Dunno why but i look forward to dance pract...maybe its because of my frens (:

....This time, i wonder how it feels like, to find the one in this life, the one we all dream of, but dreams just aren't enough....--Gotta be Somebody by Nickelback

This world....is not what it used to be. Everything seems to have changed. And its not just the technology, but also the way humans think.

....This is 10% luck, 20% skill, 15% concentrated power of will. 5% pleasure, 50% pain, and a hundred percent reason to remember the name....--Remember the name by Fort Minor

Im not perfect. I agree. Nobody is perfect in this world. So, its perfectly normal to have people who dun like you for some reasons. BUT, if that person annoys me or attitudes me, believe me. My dark side will reveal itself. So far, no one knows abt my dark side, but i can tell you this. I.Will.Get.Real.Nasty. I remember once that i picked up a table in school and threw it at the person who guailaned me. By nasty, i mean devils' nasty. No mercy. Hopefully, you dun unleash the other side of me.

Anyways, i finally understood the meaning of the phrase, "Breaking Point". These three days of dance practices were the most intensive and tiring ones of all. I got so tired that i danced on adrenaline. The whole world was blank and i was moving my instinct. Kinda cool, but its exhausting. I cant feel my legs now and its a miracle that i can still type this post. I guess im gonna sleep the full day tmr and let my body get the rest it deserves.

Friends make the world go round, and im thankful to have such wonderful frens in life. Guys i mean.

....Tell me what you want to hear, something that were like those years, I'm sick of all the insincere, so I'm gonna give all my secrets away....--Secrets by OneRepublic

Friends stand by one another. They dun guailan each other and they dun tease each other. Wads the point of all these teasing? U alr know that things are impossible btwn us, and yet u still tease me abt her/ tease her abt me. Has it ever occurred to you that other people has feelings? I mean, how would she feel? So, pls stop this madness .___.

....I close both locks below the window. I close both blinds and turn away. Sometimes solutions aren't so simple. Sometimes good bye's the only way....--Shadow of the day by Linkin Park

Sometimes, its better to keep silent.

....I didn't want to lose you. Leave you with a broken heart. But wherever we are, we're miles apart, I know that we tried, but this is the last goodbye....--The Last Goodbye by David Cook

Boring. Nothing to do lol. I just spent my entire day creating music for teachers day dance. Its tough work, but i enjoy the process. I just wish that for once, something INTERESTING would happen to me.

....if heartache was a physical pain, i can face it. But you're hurting me from inside of my head, i cant take it....--Lose my mind by The Wanted

Retard. Im gonna thrust everything i know into the trash. Its obvious, that cold and dark attitude towards we. Hence, i've set my mind and nothing can change it, forever. Fk it all im not gonna care. Gotta keep moving forward and hope that the future brings much more brightness and happiness to me. Screw off with that fking attitude and stop fking making me sad. I won't be able to take it for long, so get lost and goodbye

....When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change. Cause girl you're amazing, just the way you are. And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for awhile. Cause girl you're amazing, just the way you are....--Just the way you are by Bruno Mars


Ever since the june holidays started, i've been losing my sleep. I go to bed at 10pm, but stay awake until 3am before i can sleep. Insommia i guess. I am dam tired now, but i just cant go to sleep.

....'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth i could be. Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet, and you'd see me waiting for you, on the corner of the street....--The Man who cant be moved by The Script

Maple truly sucks now...so laggy. Change channel...lag. Attack...lag. Pick up pots...lag. Getamped is still the best lol

....tell me again, was it love at first sight. When i walked by and you caught my eye. Didnt know love could shine this bright, if life was a game you would never play nice, if love was a beam you'd be blind in both eyes....--Deer in the Headlights by Owl City

Did practically nothing today. Watched the entire series of nigahiga and most made me laugh very hard.

My phone has not had continuous vibrations ever since that fateful day

....she laughs at my dreams, but i dream about her laughter. She's bitter-sweet, she knocks me off of my feet, and i cant help myself, i dun wan anyone else. She's a mystery, she's too much for me, but i keep coming back for more..she's just the girl im looking for....--Just the girl by Click 5

The human life is very fragile. One moment u might be using ur computer or watching tv, the next moment, maybe the ceiling fan above u crashes down. What im trying to say is, we should live our life to the fullest. No regrets.

Anyway, no matter where i go, there is always a mask on my face. A hidden identity. I just cant reveal my true self in public. I always act happy, optimistic on the outside. But inside....its a black hole.

I wish to grow up

....when darkness turns to light, it ends tonight....--It ends tonight by All Americans Reject

....God bless us everyone, we're broken people living under loaded gun, and it cant be outfought, it cant be outdone, it cant be outmatched, it cant be outrun....--The catalyst by Linkin Park

...I'm losing what i don't deserve...--Burning in the skies by Linkin Park

I never knew that such coincidence happens. Similar name, similar personalities, similar height, similar features, even similar level of innocence....such coincidences never happen. Is this a miracle? Or is it a chance for me to change? Hmmmm...i shall go for it and try it out.

Watched kungfu panda 2 for the second time today...still as awesome as ever.

2/6/11

Wa its been almost a month since my previous post...paiseh lol. i've been rather busy and lazy to post. But at least im back! lol a lot has happened since the previous post, and im lazy to post all of them xD. i'll just give a brief summary of my pathetically busy life:

16-20 May, i went to vietnam for dance OELP. That trip made me happier than normal days, and i wished that time would stop at that perfect moment. But ofcos, tts impossible. Then after the vietnam trip, sulao said that he was gonna choose the next president of dance society, and he chose two "candidates". Me and zaw. Obviously i was shocked. There were so many better choices than me, but why did he choose me? My results werent very good either. LOL haiz honestly, being the pres seems great, but the extra burden and responsibilty on my shoulders wouldnt exactly improve my pathetic life.

Anyway, after we arrived back in Singapore, all those happiness instantly disappeared....stress comes back and all my worries surfaced again. All my worries include: friendship probs, relationship probs, studies, life etc. Life really sucks ttc (to the core). I dun even know wads the purpose of everything. But at least i have a confidante xD. Someone who listens to my problems and understands me. We share each others' secrets and talk about it. Honestly, talking to someone who understands really helps. By sharing all ur troubles, u wun explode on the inside. A fren is meant to be there to listen and share these pain.

Anyway, yesterday was the dance orientation for the year ones. I cant believe i got lost on my way to west coast park! somemore i oso caused my fren who travelled with me to suffer....i feel really bad >< And i might have unknowingly said some of my secrets to my fren...zzzzz stupid me and my mouth.

Sometimes, i wonder. Why try so hard when u know that it is impossible!? But giving up isnt that easy and it doesnt happen overnight. On the surface, i may seem like a happy opotimistic person, but deep down, all my troubles are actually slowly eating away my heart and soul. God, or someone, help me pls...