Cause there'll be no sunlight
if I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear
skies
if I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds,
my eyes will do the
same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain,
rain, rain
Hahas very long never blog liao :P busy la hahas. Doing what? Hehe shall not tell u
Alot has happened since i'd last been here..alot of happiness and sadness, and some enjoyment :P I dunno where to start, so i shall just jump to the main points :P First wanna say thanks to my mei who brightened up my days beginning from that day :D Im a happy guy now muahahahas. Yeap and thanks my other mei for the card ^^ inspiration for my blog title hehe >< And thanks to all my wonderful friends!
Sadly someone chose the wrong side of the room. Influence from frens is sometimes good, but don't get blindedd by them. Some of them just mislead you, some of them play with your feelings. You like that person, but that doesnt mean that person likes you back. So stop being an ass and always side ur gfriend. Annoys me alot to see you being used. And thanks alot for calling me a dog -.- really appreciate that man.
Okay dun wanna dwell in that dark realm :D Going Universal studio tmr hahas ^^ Until then, cya :D
....It was like a time bomb, set it in motion
We were only destined to explode
And if I have to pull you out of the wreckage
You know I'm never gonna let you go....--Time Bomb by All Time Low
Can't sleep these few days...toss and turns are more and more frequent nowadays. The dreams get more and more vivid as well. Sometimes i think the dreams will become real. Most of the time i wake up perspiring.
Idk why, but recently i've been catching 11:11 alot of times. Lets hope my prayers do work out~
We were only destined to explode
And if I have to pull you out of the wreckage
You know I'm never gonna let you go....--Time Bomb by All Time Low
Can't sleep these few days...toss and turns are more and more frequent nowadays. The dreams get more and more vivid as well. Sometimes i think the dreams will become real. Most of the time i wake up perspiring.
Idk why, but recently i've been catching 11:11 alot of times. Lets hope my prayers do work out~
....I'm looking hard in the mirror
But I don't fit my skin....
Its 11/11/11....pretty much around there i guess._. And i must say, it was definitely not a great way to wake up. Had a bad dream, or shld i say...nightmare. I woke up crying. (Not a very glam way to wake up thou). I shall not disclose the contents of my dream, but all i can say is: What would u do if one day, you woke up to find that both your parents arent around, and that they have "left" you? ("left" = leave ur side and enter the walkways of heaven). Yeap that pretty much sums it all up. Oh well~
Well, i made a promise to my fren to try not to be so emo, to try and look more on the brighter side. I'll try, but no promises (:
But I don't fit my skin....
Its 11/11/11....pretty much around there i guess._. And i must say, it was definitely not a great way to wake up. Had a bad dream, or shld i say...nightmare. I woke up crying. (Not a very glam way to wake up thou). I shall not disclose the contents of my dream, but all i can say is: What would u do if one day, you woke up to find that both your parents arent around, and that they have "left" you? ("left" = leave ur side and enter the walkways of heaven). Yeap that pretty much sums it all up. Oh well~
Well, i made a promise to my fren to try not to be so emo, to try and look more on the brighter side. I'll try, but no promises (:
....Do you hear me? I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying....--Lucky by jason mraz
Great. More emo thoughts.
People exist in this world for a reason; for a purpose. Most people have different talents and skills. In fact, everyone that i know, have special talents or skills or character. But me? I have practically none. Im only known to be very caring and always show concern to my friends. However that isn't really good. Vincent can play the chinese yoyo really well. Minnee and dance really well. Zhixun has a very happy-go-lucky character that never fails to brighten up everyone's day. Haolong is very independent and reliable. Yanling is optimistic and has the never-say-die attitude. ETC. Everyone that i know has something special about them! Except me. All that i want to do is to be friends with everyone, and have no enemies. Why is it so damn hard? I really think the title of my blog really suits me well. Yeah yeah very good lor. I try my best to make everyone happy, and what do i get? Ignores, dislikes, backstabs, insults. Thanks people. Thanks for making me feel so insignificant. I just watched Avatar the movie (the blue people movie, not the lame cartoon one). Jake the crippled man can be a hero in Pandora, another world. He has a new life. How i wish to have that kind of life as well.
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying....--Lucky by jason mraz
Great. More emo thoughts.
People exist in this world for a reason; for a purpose. Most people have different talents and skills. In fact, everyone that i know, have special talents or skills or character. But me? I have practically none. Im only known to be very caring and always show concern to my friends. However that isn't really good. Vincent can play the chinese yoyo really well. Minnee and dance really well. Zhixun has a very happy-go-lucky character that never fails to brighten up everyone's day. Haolong is very independent and reliable. Yanling is optimistic and has the never-say-die attitude. ETC. Everyone that i know has something special about them! Except me. All that i want to do is to be friends with everyone, and have no enemies. Why is it so damn hard? I really think the title of my blog really suits me well. Yeah yeah very good lor. I try my best to make everyone happy, and what do i get? Ignores, dislikes, backstabs, insults. Thanks people. Thanks for making me feel so insignificant. I just watched Avatar the movie (the blue people movie, not the lame cartoon one). Jake the crippled man can be a hero in Pandora, another world. He has a new life. How i wish to have that kind of life as well.
....I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you....--Numb by Linkin Park
Why do you hate me so much? I have not done anything that disturbed you, or irritates you. I don't even talk to you! I really don't understand why you hate me so much seriously. I have never offended you or anything. Why?? Seriously, WHY??
Haiz anyways, life truly sucks. Stupid la walao we signed up earlier than most people for F1, in the end? Stupid la wts zaw's grp got chosen. Not that i dunwan their grp to get chosen, but i just dun get it. Haiz ohwell nvm i just hope i can get into TKK or X-Challenge with kasia and zhiwei._.
All this is complete farcical~
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you....--Numb by Linkin Park
Why do you hate me so much? I have not done anything that disturbed you, or irritates you. I don't even talk to you! I really don't understand why you hate me so much seriously. I have never offended you or anything. Why?? Seriously, WHY??
Haiz anyways, life truly sucks. Stupid la walao we signed up earlier than most people for F1, in the end? Stupid la wts zaw's grp got chosen. Not that i dunwan their grp to get chosen, but i just dun get it. Haiz ohwell nvm i just hope i can get into TKK or X-Challenge with kasia and zhiwei._.
All this is complete farcical~
....are you a philosopher? Yeah yeah I’ll philosopha on top of ya....--Announcement by Common
Today is 1/11/11. Another 10 more days to the perfect moment of the year, not that i believe in wishes thou._.
Kinda fun today xD Stayed back with brother haolong to do hwk and watch the girls dance ataraxia. But that wasn't the fun part. It was when everyone had left, and all that remained were the year 3 dancers :D Being with girls can give you a totally different perspective in life. Girls are crazy people who love to let their hair down at the appropriate times xD They are fun and outgoing and just happy. At least they made me smile alot today (: Wish that times like this could last, together with my other brothers.
Tmr will suck. I have to find a hole where i can bury my face and forget the world....totally manz. Dun wanna let anyone know about it, but...yea.__.
Today is 1/11/11. Another 10 more days to the perfect moment of the year, not that i believe in wishes thou._.
Kinda fun today xD Stayed back with brother haolong to do hwk and watch the girls dance ataraxia. But that wasn't the fun part. It was when everyone had left, and all that remained were the year 3 dancers :D Being with girls can give you a totally different perspective in life. Girls are crazy people who love to let their hair down at the appropriate times xD They are fun and outgoing and just happy. At least they made me smile alot today (: Wish that times like this could last, together with my other brothers.
Tmr will suck. I have to find a hole where i can bury my face and forget the world....totally manz. Dun wanna let anyone know about it, but...yea.__.
Hahas im back from malaysia xD Friday night we celebrated my great grandmother's 71st birthday. Saturday we celebrated my cousin, Lily jiejie's wedding. IT WAS FREAKING GRAND MAN!! Hahahas it made me understand something. Wedding is the most important event in everyone's lives. It is also the happiest moment where the couple's souls are intertwined together. They will live through thick and thin together, go through happy and sad moments together, and most importantly, love each other until the end of their lives. The feeling that i had during the ceremony was indescribable. Hahas then Sunday we celebrated me and my cousin's (another cousin) birthdays in advance. Her birthday is on 24th october and mine is on 25th october. There were cakes xD hahas. Pictures coming soon, as soon as i rearrange my photos.
....I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you....
Disappointed. Sad. Emotionless. How could i have gotten this kind of results?! Seriously what am i doing manz...Haiz shld i stay on and repeat another year? Or shld i go to another school and die with the huge change in environment? Two ways of hell that leads to death. My heart is totally broken, with disappointment.
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you....
Disappointed. Sad. Emotionless. How could i have gotten this kind of results?! Seriously what am i doing manz...Haiz shld i stay on and repeat another year? Or shld i go to another school and die with the huge change in environment? Two ways of hell that leads to death. My heart is totally broken, with disappointment.
....Breathe and I'll carry you away into the velvet sky
And we'll stir the stars around
And watch them fall away into the Hudson Bay
And plummet out of sight and sound....--On the wing by Owl City
YESHHHHH eoys are finally over!! Wooohooo!! Can partayy ALL DAY LONG xD. Been waiting for this day sia hahas :D Anyways, here are my goals that i want to accomplish soon:
1. Learn guitar
2. Learn sword-fighting
3. Learn piano
4. Master cooking
5. Go gym train
6. Play com
7. Go out with cousins
8. Go out with mei(s)
9. Take self-defense lessons
10. Get new songs
11. Play badminton with cousin
12. Buy clothes
13. Watch anime
14. Prepare interior design of my bedroom and studyroom, renovation xD
Hehe so many things to do. Im sho busy :D hahahs idk im feeling high now. High on ecstacy maybe xD joking la hahas. Cant wait for my cousin's wedding on 21st october :D gonna be cool, since im the best man :P BUT im gonnaa die on 25th october....I think. Most people won't rmb anyways. I bet even YOU don't know wad event happens on 25th october.
Anyways, i suddenly feel dam motivated by watching Katekyo Hitman Reborn. Wait wait im gonna download some episodes and show them here :D wait ar brb._.
And we'll stir the stars around
And watch them fall away into the Hudson Bay
And plummet out of sight and sound....--On the wing by Owl City
YESHHHHH eoys are finally over!! Wooohooo!! Can partayy ALL DAY LONG xD. Been waiting for this day sia hahas :D Anyways, here are my goals that i want to accomplish soon:
1. Learn guitar
2. Learn sword-fighting
3. Learn piano
4. Master cooking
5. Go gym train
6. Play com
7. Go out with cousins
8. Go out with mei(s)
9. Take self-defense lessons
10. Get new songs
11. Play badminton with cousin
12. Buy clothes
13. Watch anime
14. Prepare interior design of my bedroom and studyroom, renovation xD
Hehe so many things to do. Im sho busy :D hahahs idk im feeling high now. High on ecstacy maybe xD joking la hahas. Cant wait for my cousin's wedding on 21st october :D gonna be cool, since im the best man :P BUT im gonnaa die on 25th october....I think. Most people won't rmb anyways. I bet even YOU don't know wad event happens on 25th october.
Anyways, i suddenly feel dam motivated by watching Katekyo Hitman Reborn. Wait wait im gonna download some episodes and show them here :D wait ar brb._.
....It's for the best I know it is but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out
Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you
Aren't memories supposed to fade?
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard....--A little too not over you by David Archuleta
I'll be back soon. Eoys are here. Failure is not an option. Okay im gonna afk for a few weeks. Don't miss me(:
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out
Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you
Aren't memories supposed to fade?
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard....--A little too not over you by David Archuleta
I'll be back soon. Eoys are here. Failure is not an option. Okay im gonna afk for a few weeks. Don't miss me(:
....Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are....--Wake me up when September ends
I really envy you manzxc...you are so charismatic, funny, happy, shuai, sociable...no wonder so many girls like you T.T you have everything every guy wants to have.__. Its so hard for guys to actually be close to girls, but you make it look so simple and easy...Haiz i guess all the guys shld learn from you hahas xP
Screw eoys make my life so terrible -.- Like seriously la...i use com oso cannot. When i touch com parents will ask wad im doing and finish wad time -.- then they will constantly check, making it harder for me to blog. Life sucks, thumbs up if you agree.
LOL i wish everything would be happy again. Somehow, recently i find it increasingly difficult to smile. Idk :/ but i think i lost my optimism T.T Seriously, i've been rather pessismistic recently. I see no reason to smile, the most i can muster would be a slight movement with my mouth that looks like a tiny smile. But deep inside im bleeding, for no reason. What's happening to me??
Like we did when spring began
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are....--Wake me up when September ends
I really envy you manzxc...you are so charismatic, funny, happy, shuai, sociable...no wonder so many girls like you T.T you have everything every guy wants to have.__. Its so hard for guys to actually be close to girls, but you make it look so simple and easy...Haiz i guess all the guys shld learn from you hahas xP
Screw eoys make my life so terrible -.- Like seriously la...i use com oso cannot. When i touch com parents will ask wad im doing and finish wad time -.- then they will constantly check, making it harder for me to blog. Life sucks, thumbs up if you agree.
LOL i wish everything would be happy again. Somehow, recently i find it increasingly difficult to smile. Idk :/ but i think i lost my optimism T.T Seriously, i've been rather pessismistic recently. I see no reason to smile, the most i can muster would be a slight movement with my mouth that looks like a tiny smile. But deep inside im bleeding, for no reason. What's happening to me??
....This one's for you and me,
living out our dreams
We're all right where we should be
Lift my arms out wide, I open my eyes
And now all I wanna see
Is a sky full of lighters
A sky full of lighters....--Lighters by Bruno Mars
I envy those two...so close and so sweet:p And i feel kinda sad? Idk mixed feelings: Happy for them, sad for myself.
Okayy forget it LOL i dunno why, but it feels like my heart is getting weaker by the second. The medication doesnt seem to be working as well. Heart pain just by walking a short distance. Maybe im gonna die :O okay shldnt being thinking abt these stuff.__.
What would you do if tmr was your last day? Hmmm...i guess confessing my love would be enough? Oh wait i dun have anyone i like now. Hmmm...i guess im gonna tell all my awesome friends that they are my world, my life and my everything.
A shoutout to all my awesome friends: Roy, Zaw, Hao Long, Vincent, Waihong, Tianhao, Zhixun, Minnee, yanling, Zhiwen, Shermaine. You guys have been really nice to me, and i feel extremely blessed to have met yall in my life. I guess i wouldn't have any more regrets if only i could tell them this. But of course, my life isn't over until its over (: Thanks guys~
living out our dreams
We're all right where we should be
Lift my arms out wide, I open my eyes
And now all I wanna see
Is a sky full of lighters
A sky full of lighters....--Lighters by Bruno Mars
I envy those two...so close and so sweet:p And i feel kinda sad? Idk mixed feelings: Happy for them, sad for myself.
Okayy forget it LOL i dunno why, but it feels like my heart is getting weaker by the second. The medication doesnt seem to be working as well. Heart pain just by walking a short distance. Maybe im gonna die :O okay shldnt being thinking abt these stuff.__.
What would you do if tmr was your last day? Hmmm...i guess confessing my love would be enough? Oh wait i dun have anyone i like now. Hmmm...i guess im gonna tell all my awesome friends that they are my world, my life and my everything.
A shoutout to all my awesome friends: Roy, Zaw, Hao Long, Vincent, Waihong, Tianhao, Zhixun, Minnee, yanling, Zhiwen, Shermaine. You guys have been really nice to me, and i feel extremely blessed to have met yall in my life. I guess i wouldn't have any more regrets if only i could tell them this. But of course, my life isn't over until its over (: Thanks guys~
....who would of thought we would be arguably the greatest of all time....--Top of the World by T.I.
I must say, im very proud of the year 3 dancers (: We have really proven ourselves and danced the best today!! According to my juniors/ seniors/ friends, our dance was one of the best performance of the entire concert. Wooo~ Great job dancers yall have truly outdone yourselves. Great job, and i hope that our batch will remain forever bonded like today. Thank you all for everything! (:
I must say, im very proud of the year 3 dancers (: We have really proven ourselves and danced the best today!! According to my juniors/ seniors/ friends, our dance was one of the best performance of the entire concert. Wooo~ Great job dancers yall have truly outdone yourselves. Great job, and i hope that our batch will remain forever bonded like today. Thank you all for everything! (:
....When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No I won't be afraid, no I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, stand by me....--Stand By Me by Ben E. King
Today so chaotic, but at least i managed to relieve my stress xP. Got so high when the song "Party Rock Anthem" was played. My body acted on adrenaline and i danced like crazy xD Awesome feeling (: i hope it can happen again.__.
Anyway i just realised my birthday falls on a cca day...ohshit die >< gonna tio mass taopok-ed ggwp. LOL but somehow im looking forward to it (:
To all year 3 dancers, Jiayous for tmr dance!! Just do your best. Most importantly, have fun and stay happy! Even though we may have alot of arguments and quarrels, we still have alot of happy moments together. Through this teachers day dance, i have made alot more frens and bonded with the girls. This moment, i will never forget. Thank you year 3 dancers, for everything yall have given us. I hope that we will remain this bonded, throughout every obstacle and challenges. Jiayous year 3 dancers!!
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No I won't be afraid, no I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, stand by me....--Stand By Me by Ben E. King
Today so chaotic, but at least i managed to relieve my stress xP. Got so high when the song "Party Rock Anthem" was played. My body acted on adrenaline and i danced like crazy xD Awesome feeling (: i hope it can happen again.__.
Anyway i just realised my birthday falls on a cca day...ohshit die >< gonna tio mass taopok-ed ggwp. LOL but somehow im looking forward to it (:
To all year 3 dancers, Jiayous for tmr dance!! Just do your best. Most importantly, have fun and stay happy! Even though we may have alot of arguments and quarrels, we still have alot of happy moments together. Through this teachers day dance, i have made alot more frens and bonded with the girls. This moment, i will never forget. Thank you year 3 dancers, for everything yall have given us. I hope that we will remain this bonded, throughout every obstacle and challenges. Jiayous year 3 dancers!!
....I don't quite know, how to say, how I feel....--Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol
I dun wanna be pres. So much pressure. Everything i have to decide...im not a decider sia...i cant make decisions. I dun like shouting, i dun like controlling people, i dun like punishing them, i dun like leading. No wait. Not i dun like. Is i cant. So far proven alr...im a failure, thats the truth. Haiz its okay. This thursday it will end, the nightmares i've been having ever since~
I dun wanna be pres. So much pressure. Everything i have to decide...im not a decider sia...i cant make decisions. I dun like shouting, i dun like controlling people, i dun like punishing them, i dun like leading. No wait. Not i dun like. Is i cant. So far proven alr...im a failure, thats the truth. Haiz its okay. This thursday it will end, the nightmares i've been having ever since~
....I can't take it I can't take it
I'm gonna lose my mind....--Lose my Mind by The Wanted
Im gonna lose my mind...head is currently in self-destruct mode. But wad weixian said was right (: Hang on....it will all be over on thursday.
...idk wad to say about you. I guess, i trusted the wrong person. Yup and as my signature phrase goes, "heck care liao". I mean, i just dun like the way u talk behind me. But, i guess some girls are like that...
Anyway, I think i feel something beneath my stone heart
I'm gonna lose my mind....--Lose my Mind by The Wanted
Im gonna lose my mind...head is currently in self-destruct mode. But wad weixian said was right (: Hang on....it will all be over on thursday.
...idk wad to say about you. I guess, i trusted the wrong person. Yup and as my signature phrase goes, "heck care liao". I mean, i just dun like the way u talk behind me. But, i guess some girls are like that...
Anyway, I think i feel something beneath my stone heart
....We've run out of time
It's over I'm over this life, I'm running dry
I'm out of here out of your life
It's a good day for resurrection
It's a good time to break the connection
To the heart that I've been neglecting
It's a good day for love for love to die....--A Good Day for Love to Die by The Wanted
Had a quick talk with vanessa just now, but it made me confirm my theory. Thanks(: I've hardened my heart so that i wun suffer anymore heartbreaks and pain. What's the point of a relationship when in the end, it all has the same result. Pain, tears, sadness. I've decided to be heck care about everything. My conviction got even stronger when someone said that i was irritating~. But its okay (: I dun really give a shit anymore. I guess my heart will only be melted by that destined someone. I shall go with the flow and let destiny take its place.
11:11 Let Destiny take flight! ~
It's over I'm over this life, I'm running dry
I'm out of here out of your life
It's a good day for resurrection
It's a good time to break the connection
To the heart that I've been neglecting
It's a good day for love for love to die....--A Good Day for Love to Die by The Wanted
Had a quick talk with vanessa just now, but it made me confirm my theory. Thanks(: I've hardened my heart so that i wun suffer anymore heartbreaks and pain. What's the point of a relationship when in the end, it all has the same result. Pain, tears, sadness. I've decided to be heck care about everything. My conviction got even stronger when someone said that i was irritating~. But its okay (: I dun really give a shit anymore. I guess my heart will only be melted by that destined someone. I shall go with the flow and let destiny take its place.
11:11 Let Destiny take flight! ~
....And if you know
How do you get up from an all time low?
I'm in pieces, seems like peace is the only thing I'll never know
How do you get out, get out....--All Time Low by The Wanted
Im really at an all time low now. Nothing to say for tdd. Im just ready to give up now. Speechless is the word im looking for. I guess, if everyone likes to talk crap all the time and not cooperate, then what's the point of me being there in the first place? Yall eat food and snacks inside like as if yall are allowed to. But have yall ever wondered if yall get caught one day? Yall wun be the ones getting scolded. Its me. When the dance isnt nice or going well, who do the teachers blame? Not any of you, but me. Even the decagon concert...no one wans to sit at the solo seat, so who will have to sit there? Me. I have had enough alr...Fuck everything.
How do you get up from an all time low?
I'm in pieces, seems like peace is the only thing I'll never know
How do you get out, get out....--All Time Low by The Wanted
Im really at an all time low now. Nothing to say for tdd. Im just ready to give up now. Speechless is the word im looking for. I guess, if everyone likes to talk crap all the time and not cooperate, then what's the point of me being there in the first place? Yall eat food and snacks inside like as if yall are allowed to. But have yall ever wondered if yall get caught one day? Yall wun be the ones getting scolded. Its me. When the dance isnt nice or going well, who do the teachers blame? Not any of you, but me. Even the decagon concert...no one wans to sit at the solo seat, so who will have to sit there? Me. I have had enough alr...Fuck everything.
....The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I'm glad you came....--Glad you came by The Wanted
At least now i see a glimmer of hope for our teachers day dance >< Not as cui as last time xP 7 more days countdown to teachers day celebrations. Jiayous to all year 3 dancers!!
Haiz idk how much more can i sacrifice. The decagon ticket seats were 3 full rows, plus one solo seat -.- No one wans to sit alone there, so i guess i hav no choice but to take it. Life sucks. All my buddies and good frens are like 3 rows behind me. Wtf this sucks...and i was looking forward to going out wif them so much.__.
I srsly think i suck as the cca leader. Maybe zaw really is better suited for the job...idk. Everything abt me is a failure...including results. Zaw is much smarter than me and more serious than me i guess. Haiz i think if this keeps up, there will be a time when i will jus return the blue rings. But lets hope that it nvr happens...
Hmm...i guess the song lyrics says it all. Wad i am feeling and wad i am thinking.
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I'm glad you came....--Glad you came by The Wanted
At least now i see a glimmer of hope for our teachers day dance >< Not as cui as last time xP 7 more days countdown to teachers day celebrations. Jiayous to all year 3 dancers!!
Haiz idk how much more can i sacrifice. The decagon ticket seats were 3 full rows, plus one solo seat -.- No one wans to sit alone there, so i guess i hav no choice but to take it. Life sucks. All my buddies and good frens are like 3 rows behind me. Wtf this sucks...and i was looking forward to going out wif them so much.__.
I srsly think i suck as the cca leader. Maybe zaw really is better suited for the job...idk. Everything abt me is a failure...including results. Zaw is much smarter than me and more serious than me i guess. Haiz i think if this keeps up, there will be a time when i will jus return the blue rings. But lets hope that it nvr happens...
Hmm...i guess the song lyrics says it all. Wad i am feeling and wad i am thinking.
....What you got, boy, is hard to find
I think about it all the time
I'm all strung out, my heart is fried
I just can't get you off my mind
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Because your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
I said your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love....--Your Love is my Drug by Kesha
I don't mind if im scolded. But i dun like getting scolded when my head is gonna explode. Headache alr still scold scold scold. Angry then vent ur anger on me...Somemore im sick. Haiz headache cos everything is causing problems for me. Exam results problem, cca problems, frens problem, relationship problems etc. Life sucks, to the maximum of the max. Hope the world ends in 2012
I think about it all the time
I'm all strung out, my heart is fried
I just can't get you off my mind
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Because your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
I said your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love....--Your Love is my Drug by Kesha
I don't mind if im scolded. But i dun like getting scolded when my head is gonna explode. Headache alr still scold scold scold. Angry then vent ur anger on me...Somemore im sick. Haiz headache cos everything is causing problems for me. Exam results problem, cca problems, frens problem, relationship problems etc. Life sucks, to the maximum of the max. Hope the world ends in 2012
....Let's runaway to the place where love first found us.
Let's runaway for the day, don't need anyone around us.
When everything in love gets so complicated, it only takes a day to change it.
What I have to say can't wait, all I need is a day,
so let's runaway....--Runaway by Bruno Mars
Haiz life sucks ttm. I failed my chem and i confirm gonna fail my physics and my maths. Why? Idk i just dunno how do the qns. Sucks man....dam emo and sad today. Last term i got A1 for chem, now is F9. LOL im such a failure, in everything
Let's runaway for the day, don't need anyone around us.
When everything in love gets so complicated, it only takes a day to change it.
What I have to say can't wait, all I need is a day,
so let's runaway....--Runaway by Bruno Mars
Haiz life sucks ttm. I failed my chem and i confirm gonna fail my physics and my maths. Why? Idk i just dunno how do the qns. Sucks man....dam emo and sad today. Last term i got A1 for chem, now is F9. LOL im such a failure, in everything
....I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh....--Stop and Stare by One Republic
I can tell one's emotions through sms. Idk how, and idk why, but i can do that. And After just now, i know that giving up is ok...I'll try.
If perfect is what you're looking for, then just stay the same~
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh....--Stop and Stare by One Republic
I can tell one's emotions through sms. Idk how, and idk why, but i can do that. And After just now, i know that giving up is ok...I'll try.
If perfect is what you're looking for, then just stay the same~
....Now I'm speechless over the edge, I'm just breathless
I never thought that I'd catch this lovebug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit by this lovebug again....--Love Bug by The Jonas Brothers
Haiz most guys dream of understanding more about the girl he likes. Im no exception. Sometimes, when i want to sms her, i would hesitate and ask myself, wad if she is alr smsing someone else? Will i impose on them? I shouldnt be the third party.
Sometimes i dunno if she just treats me as a normal friend or does she have deeper feelings? Am i thinking too much? Am i being an ass?
I guess most guys would agree with me...
ohshit i think i should privatize my blog.__.
I never thought that I'd catch this lovebug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit by this lovebug again....--Love Bug by The Jonas Brothers
Haiz most guys dream of understanding more about the girl he likes. Im no exception. Sometimes, when i want to sms her, i would hesitate and ask myself, wad if she is alr smsing someone else? Will i impose on them? I shouldnt be the third party.
Sometimes i dunno if she just treats me as a normal friend or does she have deeper feelings? Am i thinking too much? Am i being an ass?
I guess most guys would agree with me...
ohshit i think i should privatize my blog.__.
....Yeah, she caught my eye, as we walked on by. She could see from my face that I was, flying high, and I don't think that I'll see her again, but we shared a moment that will last till the end.
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You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. I saw your face in a crowded place, and I don't know what to do, 'cause I'll never be with you....--You're Beautiful by James Blunt
Should I take one big leap of faith? Should i take the chance, even though the risks of no return are very high? Should I break out of this barrier that my heart has been encased in for many months? And most important of all, should i love her?
...
...
...
I don't know.
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You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. I saw your face in a crowded place, and I don't know what to do, 'cause I'll never be with you....--You're Beautiful by James Blunt
Should I take one big leap of faith? Should i take the chance, even though the risks of no return are very high? Should I break out of this barrier that my heart has been encased in for many months? And most important of all, should i love her?
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...
...
I don't know.
....and if you plane fell out of the skies
who would you call with your last goodbyes
should be so careful who we live out for our lives
so when we long for absolution,there'll be no one
on the line....--Live like we're dying by The Script
~If i were the rain, could i connect with someone's heart, as the rain can unite the eternally separated earth and sky?~
~Unless i grip the sword, i cannot protect you. While gripping the sword, i cannot embrace you~
These two quotes are very meaningful and nice. And i got them while reading Bleach hahas. Life sucks. Those who agree with me, yay for you (: Anyways, I believe in second chances. Its just up to me whether i want to take that chance. No matter the risks, i will still want to be there for you, till the very end.
who would you call with your last goodbyes
should be so careful who we live out for our lives
so when we long for absolution,there'll be no one
on the line....--Live like we're dying by The Script
~If i were the rain, could i connect with someone's heart, as the rain can unite the eternally separated earth and sky?~
~Unless i grip the sword, i cannot protect you. While gripping the sword, i cannot embrace you~
These two quotes are very meaningful and nice. And i got them while reading Bleach hahas. Life sucks. Those who agree with me, yay for you (: Anyways, I believe in second chances. Its just up to me whether i want to take that chance. No matter the risks, i will still want to be there for you, till the very end.
....Maybe it's just me, couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did wasn't just deceiving?
And the tear in your eye and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place....--Maybe by Secondhand Seranade
I fell in love with Fairy Tail once again. The newest episode, episode 91, is simply awesome! I had an unexplainable feeling when i watched it. I was too inspired and mesmorized by it. HAHAS!
That everything I said and did wasn't just deceiving?
And the tear in your eye and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place....--Maybe by Secondhand Seranade
I fell in love with Fairy Tail once again. The newest episode, episode 91, is simply awesome! I had an unexplainable feeling when i watched it. I was too inspired and mesmorized by it. HAHAS!
....I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight....--Vanilla Twilight by Owl City
It turns out the loss of a fren is equally painful to the breakage of a relationship. I felt the same pain in my heart and the same sian-ness in life as before. But now is not the time to be sad and recollect my thoughts. Wad's gone is gone. Let destiny and fate decide the outcome. I. Have. No. Time. For. This. Its time to cast away all useless thoughts and start mugging for the four tests we have on friday. I want to score well and get good grades. Anything else, i do not care. yet.
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight....--Vanilla Twilight by Owl City
It turns out the loss of a fren is equally painful to the breakage of a relationship. I felt the same pain in my heart and the same sian-ness in life as before. But now is not the time to be sad and recollect my thoughts. Wad's gone is gone. Let destiny and fate decide the outcome. I. Have. No. Time. For. This. Its time to cast away all useless thoughts and start mugging for the four tests we have on friday. I want to score well and get good grades. Anything else, i do not care. yet.
....I look up to the sky and now the world is mine. Ive known it all my life, I made it, I made it! I used to dream about, the life I’m living now! I know that theres no doubt. I made it, I made it!....--I Made It by Kevin Rudolf
Im super pissed now. If i turn nasty, people will get injured. I may always smile wherever i go, but no one knows about the demon that resides in me. Soon it will be released, since im losing control alr.
Another new group of songs <3
Oh and btw, pls watch the third video >>>> its one of my favourite dance
Im super pissed now. If i turn nasty, people will get injured. I may always smile wherever i go, but no one knows about the demon that resides in me. Soon it will be released, since im losing control alr.
Another new group of songs <3
Oh and btw, pls watch the third video >>>> its one of my favourite dance
....I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you. And I need you like a heart needs a beat, but that's nothing new. Yeah yeah. I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue, and you say, sorry like an angel, heaven let me think was you, but I'm afraid....--Apologize by Justin Timberlake
Its not good to lie....but i just did...to my fren. Sry, but that qn u asked was kinda weird and awkward. If i said the truth, u might dao me, so i had no choice but to tell the untruth. Really sry, but it would be awkward if u knew my true feelings towards you. Sorry....
Its not good to lie....but i just did...to my fren. Sry, but that qn u asked was kinda weird and awkward. If i said the truth, u might dao me, so i had no choice but to tell the untruth. Really sry, but it would be awkward if u knew my true feelings towards you. Sorry....
....Sometimes solutions aren't so simple. Sometimes good bye's the only way....--Shadow of the Day by Linkin Park
Dam sian....my physics and math teacher both are relief teachers at the moment, and i must admit...i didnt listen to a single word they said. Thats why i have no idea what my math assignment to talking about.__. Im gonna mug really hard this weekend. Not much time left
Dam sian....my physics and math teacher both are relief teachers at the moment, and i must admit...i didnt listen to a single word they said. Thats why i have no idea what my math assignment to talking about.__. Im gonna mug really hard this weekend. Not much time left
....Run, baby, run, don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run, baby, run, forever will be you and me....--Check Yes Juliet by We The Kings
How i wish things would turn out the way it used to be. When everything was happy and cheerful and bright. Now its just...darkness? Idk :/ its a road of uncertainty. No one knows what lies ahead, and what will happen to me if i enter the realm of darkness. All i can do now is to carry on and hope it leads me out.
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run, baby, run, forever will be you and me....--Check Yes Juliet by We The Kings
How i wish things would turn out the way it used to be. When everything was happy and cheerful and bright. Now its just...darkness? Idk :/ its a road of uncertainty. No one knows what lies ahead, and what will happen to me if i enter the realm of darkness. All i can do now is to carry on and hope it leads me out.
....Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on....--Long Gone Moved On by The Script
I feel awesome today xP. I managed to convince roy's mom to let roy join bdance class. Since young, i have been the one in my family who can really convince another parent. Main things to take note is that you have to look calm, look them in the eyes, dun fidget about and show that you understand what they are saying. Must also watch what you say.
>>Roy>> Lets work hard together and get good grades, k? JiaYous!!
Today we watched the entire bdance lesson. We all felt a sense of adreline, like we wanted to join in and start xD. One more week of agonizing wait...im excited! (:
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on....--Long Gone Moved On by The Script
I feel awesome today xP. I managed to convince roy's mom to let roy join bdance class. Since young, i have been the one in my family who can really convince another parent. Main things to take note is that you have to look calm, look them in the eyes, dun fidget about and show that you understand what they are saying. Must also watch what you say.
>>Roy>> Lets work hard together and get good grades, k? JiaYous!!
Today we watched the entire bdance lesson. We all felt a sense of adreline, like we wanted to join in and start xD. One more week of agonizing wait...im excited! (:
....You won’t find faith or hope down a telescope
You won’t find heart and soul in the stars
You can break everything, got the chemicals
But you can’t explain a love like ours....--Science and Faith by The Script
A new breed of songs, much nicer and better than the previous (:
I sense the urgency. But most do not. We only have 3 more dance practs until teachers day is here. Dammit we have no time left....so far 2 practs hav gone, and we have only barely done 1 min 30 sec...Shyt really no time liao. Time to be ruthless and hardcore.
Yes finally persuaded my mom to let me go bdance class, under one condition. I must get good grades to prove that i can juggle both dance and schoolwork. I will do it.
Shout-out to roy. Dun worry we wunt start bdance class without you. we start next week, so you hav one week to convince ur mom. JiaYous!!~
These are my current goals:
1.Complete teachers day dance and make it successful
2.Learn bdance
3.Get good grades
4.Get You Back (roy, ring a bell? xP)
You won’t find heart and soul in the stars
You can break everything, got the chemicals
But you can’t explain a love like ours....--Science and Faith by The Script
A new breed of songs, much nicer and better than the previous (:
I sense the urgency. But most do not. We only have 3 more dance practs until teachers day is here. Dammit we have no time left....so far 2 practs hav gone, and we have only barely done 1 min 30 sec...Shyt really no time liao. Time to be ruthless and hardcore.
Yes finally persuaded my mom to let me go bdance class, under one condition. I must get good grades to prove that i can juggle both dance and schoolwork. I will do it.
Shout-out to roy. Dun worry we wunt start bdance class without you. we start next week, so you hav one week to convince ur mom. JiaYous!!~
These are my current goals:
1.Complete teachers day dance and make it successful
2.Learn bdance
3.Get good grades
4.Get You Back (roy, ring a bell? xP)
....Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place,
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you?
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you're screaming?--Welcome to my life by Simple Plan
Fuuck my life seriously. I currently have two major problems that are killing me, literally.
1. my mom says that breakdance are for gangsters and does not want me to join the bdance class. She says that even if she lets me go, she will hav to "interview" all my frens and bdance mates to see if they are good company. Like WAD THE FUCK la im not a kid anymore. I have my own pride and my own interests. Super pissed off because of this.
2. im supposed to go watch harry potter 7 part 2 tmr, saturday, with my dance mates. but she smsed me smth that made me really happy. I wanted to share my happiness and joy with my fren. But once i told him, 5 min later he told her -.- that pissed her off, since last time she said that i was a "loudspeaker". Now i bet she must be feeling the same way again. WDF it took many months of agony and pain, for me to finally become really good frens with her, and now its all over. It feels like dejavu, happening all over again, and this time, i made the same mistake. But the worst feeling of all was the feeling of betrayal.
Is my life really that pathetic? With parents who dun understand me, with frens who betray me? What has the world become today? Sorry if i gave the killer stare to anyone today, but i felt so pissed that when i punched the wall, some cement chipped off, and my knuckle was bleeding. I felt no pain, that's unsurprising, since all the pain is in my mind and my heart.
God, pls if you are out there, pls....make my life better, or you can jus end it. Im sick and tired of everything in my life. Im fed-up.
Do you ever feel out of place,
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you?
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you're screaming?--Welcome to my life by Simple Plan
Fuuck my life seriously. I currently have two major problems that are killing me, literally.
1. my mom says that breakdance are for gangsters and does not want me to join the bdance class. She says that even if she lets me go, she will hav to "interview" all my frens and bdance mates to see if they are good company. Like WAD THE FUCK la im not a kid anymore. I have my own pride and my own interests. Super pissed off because of this.
2. im supposed to go watch harry potter 7 part 2 tmr, saturday, with my dance mates. but she smsed me smth that made me really happy. I wanted to share my happiness and joy with my fren. But once i told him, 5 min later he told her -.- that pissed her off, since last time she said that i was a "loudspeaker". Now i bet she must be feeling the same way again. WDF it took many months of agony and pain, for me to finally become really good frens with her, and now its all over. It feels like dejavu, happening all over again, and this time, i made the same mistake. But the worst feeling of all was the feeling of betrayal.
Is my life really that pathetic? With parents who dun understand me, with frens who betray me? What has the world become today? Sorry if i gave the killer stare to anyone today, but i felt so pissed that when i punched the wall, some cement chipped off, and my knuckle was bleeding. I felt no pain, that's unsurprising, since all the pain is in my mind and my heart.
God, pls if you are out there, pls....make my life better, or you can jus end it. Im sick and tired of everything in my life. Im fed-up.
....So baby dun worry, you are my only, you won't be lonely, even if the sky is falling down. You'll be my only, no need to worry, baby are you down down down down down....--Down by Jay Sean
Life is hard, but whenever obstacles knock you down, never give up and keep fighting on. Eventually you will reach your destination. "what goes up must come down", but i ain't reached my cruising altitude. Perservere on, and we will see light at the end of the tunnel.
Jealousy is a mysteriously emotion. [[ Jealousy refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values, particularly in reference to a human connection. Jealousy often consists of a combination of presenting emotions such as anger, sadness, resentment and disgust. ]]
LOL its not like im feeling jealous or anything.... -.-ll okay maybe a little. But i guess its natural for me to feel that way. I always try to supress that emotion, but i guess an overload of jealousy can cause one to explode. I dun think anyone in the world understands my feelings.
Life is hard, but whenever obstacles knock you down, never give up and keep fighting on. Eventually you will reach your destination. "what goes up must come down", but i ain't reached my cruising altitude. Perservere on, and we will see light at the end of the tunnel.
Jealousy is a mysteriously emotion. [[ Jealousy refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values, particularly in reference to a human connection. Jealousy often consists of a combination of presenting emotions such as anger, sadness, resentment and disgust. ]]
LOL its not like im feeling jealous or anything.... -.-ll okay maybe a little. But i guess its natural for me to feel that way. I always try to supress that emotion, but i guess an overload of jealousy can cause one to explode. I dun think anyone in the world understands my feelings.
....baby 就是你,请靠近我怀里,别假装不在意,我想我喜欢你.
so baby 就是你,请说你也愿意,我非常喜欢你 yeah~,非常喜欢你....--恋爱大人 by 罗志祥
Im a very shy boy. Seriously, i may seem the type of outspoken and extrovert kind of guy, but thats wrong. It takes alot of courage for me to make my stand. I hate talking to many people and i hate arguing. But everytime there is group work or discussion, i'll always be the first to get it started. My fake self just kicks in to high gear. I don't like it. I never wanted it.
so baby 就是你,请说你也愿意,我非常喜欢你 yeah~,非常喜欢你....--恋爱大人 by 罗志祥
Im a very shy boy. Seriously, i may seem the type of outspoken and extrovert kind of guy, but thats wrong. It takes alot of courage for me to make my stand. I hate talking to many people and i hate arguing. But everytime there is group work or discussion, i'll always be the first to get it started. My fake self just kicks in to high gear. I don't like it. I never wanted it.
....Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway....--The Great Escape by Boys Like Girls
I hate speaking to a large group of people...today my speech sucked. i was so nervous that i blanked out completely...haiz omg dammit alot of ppl mus be "tsk"ing me now. STUUPID LA wlao i think i have phobia of speaking now...
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway....--The Great Escape by Boys Like Girls
I hate speaking to a large group of people...today my speech sucked. i was so nervous that i blanked out completely...haiz omg dammit alot of ppl mus be "tsk"ing me now. STUUPID LA wlao i think i have phobia of speaking now...
....This is not what i intended. I always swore to you I'd never fall apart. You always thought that i was stronger, I may have failed, but i have loved you from the start..Or i won't live to see another day, i swear its true, because a girl like you is impossible to find, you're impossible to find....--Fall for you by Secondhand Serenade
Im not gonna mention anything about today's math test. Cos if i really do, i will hunt down the teacher who set the paper and kill him/her/it.
Anyways, i really hope and pray that tmr's handover speech will go well...im nervous and i always stutter when im nervous. But, tmr will be a new day. I know from deep within.
Im not gonna mention anything about today's math test. Cos if i really do, i will hunt down the teacher who set the paper and kill him/her/it.
Anyways, i really hope and pray that tmr's handover speech will go well...im nervous and i always stutter when im nervous. But, tmr will be a new day. I know from deep within.
....Do you feel cold and lost in desperation? You build up hope, but failures all you've known. Remember all the sadness and frustration, and let it go. Let it go....--Iridescent by Linkin Park
Being the pres is hard. No wonder most people say that the pres has no frens. Even if he has frens, they arent allowed any privileges. Im sorry Roy, Zaw, Zhixun for being harsh on you guys. Even though you guys are my best frens, i still hav to scold you. Its not what i want to do, but its part of my duty. Forgive me if you guys are pissed at me.
Being the pres is hard. No wonder most people say that the pres has no frens. Even if he has frens, they arent allowed any privileges. Im sorry Roy, Zaw, Zhixun for being harsh on you guys. Even though you guys are my best frens, i still hav to scold you. Its not what i want to do, but its part of my duty. Forgive me if you guys are pissed at me.
....I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin....--Somewhere only we know by Keane
This song is from the latest Winnie the Pooh movie trailer. Anyway i havent been here very a long while. I was sick. I learnt a very nice and meaningful quote during these few days. "I will travel to the ends of the earth for you".
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin....--Somewhere only we know by Keane
This song is from the latest Winnie the Pooh movie trailer. Anyway i havent been here very a long while. I was sick. I learnt a very nice and meaningful quote during these few days. "I will travel to the ends of the earth for you".
....I'm about to lose my mind
You've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
Call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life....--I need a Doctor by Eminem
Fever 39.5 degrees celcius...i dun even have the energy to walk now. Thats probably why my laptop and my bed are my only companions.
You've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
Call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life....--I need a Doctor by Eminem
Fever 39.5 degrees celcius...i dun even have the energy to walk now. Thats probably why my laptop and my bed are my only companions.
....I'd take another chance,
Take a fall, take a shot for you.
I need you like a heart needs a beat,
But it's nothin' new.
I loved you with a fire red,
Now it's turnin' blue...
And you say...
Sorry, like an angel
Heaven let me think was you...
But I'm afraid....--Apologize by One Republic
I just realised that i have been updating on my blog veryvery early in the morning. Cos i cant sleep lols.
Take a fall, take a shot for you.
I need you like a heart needs a beat,
But it's nothin' new.
I loved you with a fire red,
Now it's turnin' blue...
And you say...
Sorry, like an angel
Heaven let me think was you...
But I'm afraid....--Apologize by One Republic
I just realised that i have been updating on my blog veryvery early in the morning. Cos i cant sleep lols.
....Work it harder, make it better, do it faster, makes us stronger, more than ever, never over, our work is never over....--Stronger by Kanye West
I dun like your attitude towards me. Thats it.
So pls stop with that *stupid* attitude.
I'm controlling myself so that i dun say the F word.
Like seriously, What the Fishballs is your problem?
You got a problem, then jus get lost and dun take it to me.
Or one day i'll just crush you in my hands.
I hate carpets. Now. My whole body has burns and bruises and some parts of my skin came off. BUT on the bright side, i consider "S.F.C.B.O." a success xP. (Search For Chio Bu Operation) LOLs jkjk xD
I dun like your attitude towards me. Thats it.
So pls stop with that *stupid* attitude.
I'm controlling myself so that i dun say the F word.
Like seriously, What the Fishballs is your problem?
You got a problem, then jus get lost and dun take it to me.
Or one day i'll just crush you in my hands.
I hate carpets. Now. My whole body has burns and bruises and some parts of my skin came off. BUT on the bright side, i consider "S.F.C.B.O." a success xP. (Search For Chio Bu Operation) LOLs jkjk xD
....I'm not surprised, not everything last, I've broken my heart so many times i stopped keeping track. Talk myself in, I talk myself out, I get all worked up, then i let myself down....--I just haven't met you yet by Michael Buble
I'm glad i have good friends, especially those awesome brothers from dance. They make me feel happy, and they draw away the feeling of loneliness. Maybe thats the reason why i enjoy coming to dance so much. I have a loving family there.
Thanks Roy, we are two emo guys on the same boat (: Love talking to you.
Last day of the hols...i dunno but i have a kind o feeling that even i dun understand. I wanna go school and study, but there's dance rehearsals. But i love dance rehearsals. Still, i wanna see my classmates. Haiz choices in life are terrible
I'm glad i have good friends, especially those awesome brothers from dance. They make me feel happy, and they draw away the feeling of loneliness. Maybe thats the reason why i enjoy coming to dance so much. I have a loving family there.
Thanks Roy, we are two emo guys on the same boat (: Love talking to you.
Last day of the hols...i dunno but i have a kind o feeling that even i dun understand. I wanna go school and study, but there's dance rehearsals. But i love dance rehearsals. Still, i wanna see my classmates. Haiz choices in life are terrible
....I am in misery
There ain't nobody who can comfort me
Why won't you answer me?
Your silence is slowly killing me
Girl you really got me bad
You really got me bad
Now I'm gonna get you back
I'm gonna get you back....--Misery by Maroon 5
Honestly, I dun think anyone can understand what im feeling now. No one. Tears almost came out of my eyes today.
Its funny how life can be so coincidental. The lyrics of some songs relate to whatever feelings i have for that day.
There ain't nobody who can comfort me
Why won't you answer me?
Your silence is slowly killing me
Girl you really got me bad
You really got me bad
Now I'm gonna get you back
I'm gonna get you back....--Misery by Maroon 5
Honestly, I dun think anyone can understand what im feeling now. No one. Tears almost came out of my eyes today.
Its funny how life can be so coincidental. The lyrics of some songs relate to whatever feelings i have for that day.
....I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone....--Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day
Walking alone gives me a sense of solitude. It gives me time to think. About what? I dunno...jus think abt my life?
Half a year has gone by alr...time flies, but im not having fun. Wish to see my frens soon.
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone....--Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day
Walking alone gives me a sense of solitude. It gives me time to think. About what? I dunno...jus think abt my life?
Half a year has gone by alr...time flies, but im not having fun. Wish to see my frens soon.
....You're all alone running out of ways to
Hold on to hope, and it always slips away
You're all alone, but you don't have to
Pretend to cope, there is a better way
If you would change your perspective
You'd see that it is true
Life is not always what you want
Sometimes it's hard to bear
I'd be with you, and help you
In all that you go through
I love you, let me change your heart....--All Alone by Kutless
Watched Mr Popper's Penguins with my awesome frens today. Seriously dam funny and awesome! I recommend you all to watch it. Then I played pool with zaw, zhixun, haolong and vanessa. Seriously laugh until stomache cramp.
Dunno why but i look forward to dance pract...maybe its because of my frens (:
Hold on to hope, and it always slips away
You're all alone, but you don't have to
Pretend to cope, there is a better way
If you would change your perspective
You'd see that it is true
Life is not always what you want
Sometimes it's hard to bear
I'd be with you, and help you
In all that you go through
I love you, let me change your heart....--All Alone by Kutless
Watched Mr Popper's Penguins with my awesome frens today. Seriously dam funny and awesome! I recommend you all to watch it. Then I played pool with zaw, zhixun, haolong and vanessa. Seriously laugh until stomache cramp.
Dunno why but i look forward to dance pract...maybe its because of my frens (:
....This time, i wonder how it feels like, to find the one in this life, the one we all dream of, but dreams just aren't enough....--Gotta be Somebody by Nickelback
This world....is not what it used to be. Everything seems to have changed. And its not just the technology, but also the way humans think.
This world....is not what it used to be. Everything seems to have changed. And its not just the technology, but also the way humans think.
....This is 10% luck, 20% skill, 15% concentrated power of will. 5% pleasure, 50% pain, and a hundred percent reason to remember the name....--Remember the name by Fort Minor
Im not perfect. I agree. Nobody is perfect in this world. So, its perfectly normal to have people who dun like you for some reasons. BUT, if that person annoys me or attitudes me, believe me. My dark side will reveal itself. So far, no one knows abt my dark side, but i can tell you this. I.Will.Get.Real.Nasty. I remember once that i picked up a table in school and threw it at the person who guailaned me. By nasty, i mean devils' nasty. No mercy. Hopefully, you dun unleash the other side of me.
Anyways, i finally understood the meaning of the phrase, "Breaking Point". These three days of dance practices were the most intensive and tiring ones of all. I got so tired that i danced on adrenaline. The whole world was blank and i was moving my instinct. Kinda cool, but its exhausting. I cant feel my legs now and its a miracle that i can still type this post. I guess im gonna sleep the full day tmr and let my body get the rest it deserves.
Friends make the world go round, and im thankful to have such wonderful frens in life. Guys i mean.
Im not perfect. I agree. Nobody is perfect in this world. So, its perfectly normal to have people who dun like you for some reasons. BUT, if that person annoys me or attitudes me, believe me. My dark side will reveal itself. So far, no one knows abt my dark side, but i can tell you this. I.Will.Get.Real.Nasty. I remember once that i picked up a table in school and threw it at the person who guailaned me. By nasty, i mean devils' nasty. No mercy. Hopefully, you dun unleash the other side of me.
Anyways, i finally understood the meaning of the phrase, "Breaking Point". These three days of dance practices were the most intensive and tiring ones of all. I got so tired that i danced on adrenaline. The whole world was blank and i was moving my instinct. Kinda cool, but its exhausting. I cant feel my legs now and its a miracle that i can still type this post. I guess im gonna sleep the full day tmr and let my body get the rest it deserves.
Friends make the world go round, and im thankful to have such wonderful frens in life. Guys i mean.
....Tell me what you want to hear, something that were like those years, I'm sick of all the insincere, so I'm gonna give all my secrets away....--Secrets by OneRepublic
Friends stand by one another. They dun guailan each other and they dun tease each other. Wads the point of all these teasing? U alr know that things are impossible btwn us, and yet u still tease me abt her/ tease her abt me. Has it ever occurred to you that other people has feelings? I mean, how would she feel? So, pls stop this madness .___.
Friends stand by one another. They dun guailan each other and they dun tease each other. Wads the point of all these teasing? U alr know that things are impossible btwn us, and yet u still tease me abt her/ tease her abt me. Has it ever occurred to you that other people has feelings? I mean, how would she feel? So, pls stop this madness .___.
....I didn't want to lose you. Leave you with a broken heart. But wherever we are, we're miles apart, I know that we tried, but this is the last goodbye....--The Last Goodbye by David Cook
Boring. Nothing to do lol. I just spent my entire day creating music for teachers day dance. Its tough work, but i enjoy the process. I just wish that for once, something INTERESTING would happen to me.
Boring. Nothing to do lol. I just spent my entire day creating music for teachers day dance. Its tough work, but i enjoy the process. I just wish that for once, something INTERESTING would happen to me.
....if heartache was a physical pain, i can face it. But you're hurting me from inside of my head, i cant take it....--Lose my mind by The Wanted
Retard. Im gonna thrust everything i know into the trash. Its obvious, that cold and dark attitude towards we. Hence, i've set my mind and nothing can change it, forever. Fk it all im not gonna care. Gotta keep moving forward and hope that the future brings much more brightness and happiness to me. Screw off with that fking attitude and stop fking making me sad. I won't be able to take it for long, so get lost and goodbye
Retard. Im gonna thrust everything i know into the trash. Its obvious, that cold and dark attitude towards we. Hence, i've set my mind and nothing can change it, forever. Fk it all im not gonna care. Gotta keep moving forward and hope that the future brings much more brightness and happiness to me. Screw off with that fking attitude and stop fking making me sad. I won't be able to take it for long, so get lost and goodbye
....When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change. Cause girl you're amazing, just the way you are. And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for awhile. Cause girl you're amazing, just the way you are....--Just the way you are by Bruno Mars
Ever since the june holidays started, i've been losing my sleep. I go to bed at 10pm, but stay awake until 3am before i can sleep. Insommia i guess. I am dam tired now, but i just cant go to sleep.
Ever since the june holidays started, i've been losing my sleep. I go to bed at 10pm, but stay awake until 3am before i can sleep. Insommia i guess. I am dam tired now, but i just cant go to sleep.
....'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth i could be. Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet, and you'd see me waiting for you, on the corner of the street....--The Man who cant be moved by The Script
Maple truly sucks now...so laggy. Change channel...lag. Attack...lag. Pick up pots...lag. Getamped is still the best lol
Maple truly sucks now...so laggy. Change channel...lag. Attack...lag. Pick up pots...lag. Getamped is still the best lol
....tell me again, was it love at first sight. When i walked by and you caught my eye. Didnt know love could shine this bright, if life was a game you would never play nice, if love was a beam you'd be blind in both eyes....--Deer in the Headlights by Owl City
Did practically nothing today. Watched the entire series of nigahiga and most made me laugh very hard.
My phone has not had continuous vibrations ever since that fateful day
Did practically nothing today. Watched the entire series of nigahiga and most made me laugh very hard.
My phone has not had continuous vibrations ever since that fateful day
....she laughs at my dreams, but i dream about her laughter. She's bitter-sweet, she knocks me off of my feet, and i cant help myself, i dun wan anyone else. She's a mystery, she's too much for me, but i keep coming back for more..she's just the girl im looking for....--Just the girl by Click 5
The human life is very fragile. One moment u might be using ur computer or watching tv, the next moment, maybe the ceiling fan above u crashes down. What im trying to say is, we should live our life to the fullest. No regrets.
Anyway, no matter where i go, there is always a mask on my face. A hidden identity. I just cant reveal my true self in public. I always act happy, optimistic on the outside. But inside....its a black hole.
I wish to grow up
The human life is very fragile. One moment u might be using ur computer or watching tv, the next moment, maybe the ceiling fan above u crashes down. What im trying to say is, we should live our life to the fullest. No regrets.
Anyway, no matter where i go, there is always a mask on my face. A hidden identity. I just cant reveal my true self in public. I always act happy, optimistic on the outside. But inside....its a black hole.
I wish to grow up
...I'm losing what i don't deserve...--Burning in the skies by Linkin Park
I never knew that such coincidence happens. Similar name, similar personalities, similar height, similar features, even similar level of innocence....such coincidences never happen. Is this a miracle? Or is it a chance for me to change? Hmmmm...i shall go for it and try it out.
Watched kungfu panda 2 for the second time today...still as awesome as ever.
I never knew that such coincidence happens. Similar name, similar personalities, similar height, similar features, even similar level of innocence....such coincidences never happen. Is this a miracle? Or is it a chance for me to change? Hmmmm...i shall go for it and try it out.
Watched kungfu panda 2 for the second time today...still as awesome as ever.
2/6/11
Wa its been almost a month since my previous post...paiseh lol. i've been rather busy and lazy to post. But at least im back! lol a lot has happened since the previous post, and im lazy to post all of them xD. i'll just give a brief summary of my pathetically busy life:
16-20 May, i went to vietnam for dance OELP. That trip made me happier than normal days, and i wished that time would stop at that perfect moment. But ofcos, tts impossible. Then after the vietnam trip, sulao said that he was gonna choose the next president of dance society, and he chose two "candidates". Me and zaw. Obviously i was shocked. There were so many better choices than me, but why did he choose me? My results werent very good either. LOL haiz honestly, being the pres seems great, but the extra burden and responsibilty on my shoulders wouldnt exactly improve my pathetic life.
Anyway, after we arrived back in Singapore, all those happiness instantly disappeared....stress comes back and all my worries surfaced again. All my worries include: friendship probs, relationship probs, studies, life etc. Life really sucks ttc (to the core). I dun even know wads the purpose of everything. But at least i have a confidante xD. Someone who listens to my problems and understands me. We share each others' secrets and talk about it. Honestly, talking to someone who understands really helps. By sharing all ur troubles, u wun explode on the inside. A fren is meant to be there to listen and share these pain.
Anyway, yesterday was the dance orientation for the year ones. I cant believe i got lost on my way to west coast park! somemore i oso caused my fren who travelled with me to suffer....i feel really bad >< And i might have unknowingly said some of my secrets to my fren...zzzzz stupid me and my mouth.
Sometimes, i wonder. Why try so hard when u know that it is impossible!? But giving up isnt that easy and it doesnt happen overnight. On the surface, i may seem like a happy opotimistic person, but deep down, all my troubles are actually slowly eating away my heart and soul. God, or someone, help me pls...
16-20 May, i went to vietnam for dance OELP. That trip made me happier than normal days, and i wished that time would stop at that perfect moment. But ofcos, tts impossible. Then after the vietnam trip, sulao said that he was gonna choose the next president of dance society, and he chose two "candidates". Me and zaw. Obviously i was shocked. There were so many better choices than me, but why did he choose me? My results werent very good either. LOL haiz honestly, being the pres seems great, but the extra burden and responsibilty on my shoulders wouldnt exactly improve my pathetic life.
Anyway, after we arrived back in Singapore, all those happiness instantly disappeared....stress comes back and all my worries surfaced again. All my worries include: friendship probs, relationship probs, studies, life etc. Life really sucks ttc (to the core). I dun even know wads the purpose of everything. But at least i have a confidante xD. Someone who listens to my problems and understands me. We share each others' secrets and talk about it. Honestly, talking to someone who understands really helps. By sharing all ur troubles, u wun explode on the inside. A fren is meant to be there to listen and share these pain.
Anyway, yesterday was the dance orientation for the year ones. I cant believe i got lost on my way to west coast park! somemore i oso caused my fren who travelled with me to suffer....i feel really bad >< And i might have unknowingly said some of my secrets to my fren...zzzzz stupid me and my mouth.
Sometimes, i wonder. Why try so hard when u know that it is impossible!? But giving up isnt that easy and it doesnt happen overnight. On the surface, i may seem like a happy opotimistic person, but deep down, all my troubles are actually slowly eating away my heart and soul. God, or someone, help me pls...
9/5/11
Friends make the world go round xD recently i've been trying to interact more with our batch dancers, like haolong zhixun shermaine minnee....today we went for minnee's "birthday in advance" party. And it was CRAZY AWESOME :) I had so much fun today sia, and i didnt want it to end. i love my frens. They are FANTASTIC!!
5/5/11
I shall be the anonymous person, helping her in secret. Im just not strong enough to help her directly, so all i can do is to keep a low profile and stay hidden, while giving her my help when she needs it.
3/5/11
Dam happy today....I FINALLY DID A HANDSTAND!!!! LOL and its not against the wall. I really did it!! for around 5 seconds until everyone started touching my belly. LOL tickled me and caused me to lose balance. But that's not the point. My first goal in dance finally achieved.
Goals for dance:
1) Do a handstand for more than 5 sec
2) Walk around while doing handstand
3) Walk around the school hall on handstand
4) Learn cekong
5) Not sure yet.
Awesome goal number one achieved. xDD
Anyways, today's geog test was screwed. Its so easy that it was difficult. LOL gg la sianz. Must work harder for tmr's chinese test to achieve my school goals.
Goals in school:
1) Term 1 gpa above 3
2) Term 2 gpa above 3.2 Can get PSP if achieved xD
3) Term 3 gpa above previous term's gpa
4) Term 4 gpa above 3.4
Goal number one achieved....but the other goals seem abit too far-fetched...maybe i shld lower my expectations...NO i shall not. xD must aim higher to achieve more. JYJYs to everyone
Goals for dance:
1) Do a handstand for more than 5 sec
2) Walk around while doing handstand
3) Walk around the school hall on handstand
4) Learn cekong
5) Not sure yet.
Awesome goal number one achieved. xDD
Anyways, today's geog test was screwed. Its so easy that it was difficult. LOL gg la sianz. Must work harder for tmr's chinese test to achieve my school goals.
Goals in school:
1) Term 1 gpa above 3
2) Term 2 gpa above 3.2 Can get PSP if achieved xD
3) Term 3 gpa above previous term's gpa
4) Term 4 gpa above 3.4
Goal number one achieved....but the other goals seem abit too far-fetched...maybe i shld lower my expectations...NO i shall not. xD must aim higher to achieve more. JYJYs to everyone
2/5/11
We went to marina bay sands from 1st may to 2nd may. I didnt regret going, cos i had nvr seen such beauty before. Must thank my mom's boss, for treating us to a one-day hotel stay. AWESOME!!! Seriously, everything there is dam expensive.....one plate of chicken rice costs $6.80. Freaking ex. But my mom's boss treat xDD. Anyways, enjoy the photos.
Sianz back to reality. Tmr is geog test. Time is start mugging. byez~
Sianz back to reality. Tmr is geog test. Time is start mugging. byez~
2/5/11- Marina Bay Sands
Upon Arrival
LOL performance for us
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Check-In point
The toilet LOL
Inner view
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Giant Lanterns
Inner view
SO many floors LOL
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Many unheard-of restaurants
Naise interior design
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57th floor
Ice Skating Rink
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View of Singapore from the swimming pool
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Room unit
Many floors
The corridor
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Highest floor: 57
LOL must take lift to 22nd floor, then transfer to another elevator to go 57th floor
View from the balcony of my room
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View from top
Singapore Arts Museum! :)
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My room!! <3
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LOL there is even a fridge!! with drinks provided for us. AWESOME ^^
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View from the lift lobby
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Our tower xD
Cool
Hehe my cousin, ZhiZhong (Y)
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My cousinS Zhizhong and JiaWen xD
Hehe evidence that i was superr hungry.
Last view of hotel
LOL performance for us
_______
Check-In point
The toilet LOL
Inner view
-----------------
Giant Lanterns
Inner view
SO many floors LOL
==============
Many unheard-of restaurants
Naise interior design
+++++++++++++++++++
57th floor
Ice Skating Rink
``````````````````````
View of Singapore from the swimming pool
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\
Room unit
Many floors
The corridor
||||||||||||||||||||||||||
Highest floor: 57
LOL must take lift to 22nd floor, then transfer to another elevator to go 57th floor
View from the balcony of my room
.......................
View from top
Singapore Arts Museum! :)
??????????????????????????
:::::::::::::::::::::::::
My room!! <3
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
LOL there is even a fridge!! with drinks provided for us. AWESOME ^^
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
View from the lift lobby
***************************
Our tower xD
Cool
Hehe my cousin, ZhiZhong (Y)
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My cousinS Zhizhong and JiaWen xD
Hehe evidence that i was superr hungry.
Last view of hotel
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